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The Dream

from Good Childhood by Not Caleb

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I see this woman with long black hair. I remember her being tall and my mother is 4 foot 11? Maybe 5 foot 2 or something like that. She's shorter than I am, I know that much. Anyway, I always believed this woman was my mother. She didn't look anything like my biological mother, but, she was my mother. She was crying. We were in my living room late at night but, it was my living room in the early 90's before we had the addition built onto the house for my grandfather. It was dark but bright at the same time. Must have been the lightening. I could see out of the window through the front yard and the rain and I didn't know if I was standing or floating. I didn't even know if I was Caleb or Not because I could see a baby in a crib on the floor. It was either asleep or dead. I thought it was me. But, how could it be me? Did I die and come back? Everything was eerie and dark with silhouettes, flashes of light; nothing made sense. It did when I was younger but I didn't think much of it. I didn't think much of anything. I don't even remember when this happened or if it was even a Dream or not. I just remember those few details; It's my oldest memory. It confuses me as to why I still remember it or why I think about it so often. I feel like it's going to be Deja Vu at some point in my life. My son dies, my wife crying; I'm at a loss for words. Or, maybe it's deeper down than that. Maybe it's the last thing I remember from my past life. I died an infant and my soul drifted away from the child and into a new child. It all has it's loopholes though, some things are just too hard to grasp. Maybe it's better not to think about it and just be happy where you are. That is my oldest memory or my first dream. After that, It's just memories of My Childhood.

I want to feel something that I had never felt before. I want to see something out of this world.

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from Good Childhood, released February 5, 2015

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Emo Singer-Songwriter Portland, OR

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