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Fear
03:18
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It's fear
It's fear that's dragging me down and pulling me in
It's fear
Its fear that's dragging me down and pulling me in
I'm calling for help
But I can't hear my voice when I scream
It's all just piercing silence all of the same
The sound of my head and the meaning of life
Don't exist, my existential dread is laughing at me
It's fear
He lives here
Don't know how to love
and wont leave his house
He's scared
He's weird
He's used to his shell
Created his hell
Their hiding in church
And singing to GOD "Pray for Rain"
To wash their worthless bodies down the drain
But, its all in their heads
The meaning of life don't exist
Their existential dread is laughing with them
You created this life
Gave birth to yourself
Said your name
Now was the blood and dirt of off your face
Said you don't know love
But she cleaned up your life
Bless her heart
Which you displayed like it was your work of art
I'm calling for help
But I can't hear my voice when I scream
It's all just piercing silence all of the same
Their hiding in church
And singing to GOD "Pray for Rain"
To wash their worthless bodies down the drain
But, its all in their heads
The meaning of life don't exist
My existential dread is laughing at me
It's fear
It's here
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2. |
Brown Recluse
02:18
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Wake up
Same stuff
Same room
Same you
There's a spider
in the corner of my eye
Brown recluse, you saved me
It only seems much worse
when i think about how far i am from home
wondering if anyone
will miss me when i'm gone
I'm a spider
in the corner of my room
brown recluse, i am you
curl up
wait for
its bite
to kill me
i don't want to spend my whole life
spinning web with nothing inside
there's a spider in the corner of my eye
brown recluse
you saved me
i'm a spider
in the corner of my room
brown recluse, i am you
wake up
same stuff
same room
same you
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3. |
Companion
03:12
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It's a far walk
And I need to get there
I'm scared, though
That I may not make it
Alone
I just may not make it
Alone
Hello there
With a face so gentle
You may help me
Swallow all of my fears and
Jump
Do you think you'd help me
Fly?
God, I hope you help me
Fly
It's a far walk
Will you walk there with me?
It's far, though
And we may not make it
Back
But we just might make it
There
God, I hope we make it there
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4. |
Eyes
02:58
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I've got this tired song playing through my headphones
Dead faces all staring at their iphones
But, I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't one of those
But I will try to see the world through my own Eyes
I've got some friends that have stuck around
New faces I see walking around town
But, when work is done I just go straight home
And I can't stand the feeling of being all alone
But I will try to see the world through other Eyes
I heard entitlement scoff, "Man, what an eyesore"
The kind of man who still has Daddy's credit card
And I felt ashamed for wishing he'd traded shoes
But I will try to see the world through his own eyes
But, he's going blind, man don't have no golden rule
Granted everything he's got but granted, It's all he's got
And all I could see is just how sad it is to live
for material things until it just swallows you
But I will try to see the world
Without any Eyes
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I can see you taking off your dress for a boy you just met
I wanna take it all back
The scent of your perfume
Is someone I once knew
Morning, you get dressed
and kiss his morning breath
He is laying in his bed
Think about what you said
I hope you take it all back
The scent of your perfume
Lingers in his room
Memories of you
Maybe never bloom
She loves me
She loves me not
She loves me
She loves me not
She loves me
She loves me not
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6. |
Dark.forever
01:26
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dark.forever
black.forever
scared.forever
fall.forever
silence.forever
sea.forever
float.forever
swim.forever
drown.forever
die.forever
live.forever
love.forever
fight.forever
light.forever
do you see the light?
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7. |
Ocean
02:46
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You are my ocean
You are the reason that I float
You are the moonlight
You are my guide late at night
You are my pillow
You are my lullaby to sleep
You are my appetite
You are the apple of my eye
You are my sunshine
You are the girl of my dreams
You are my ocean
You are the reason that I float
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8. |
Falling/Flying
01:46
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I was an embryo
i was an embryo
expanding like a universe
drowning in a water birth
and i am a hurricane
devastated that i came
burning like a wild fire
giving in to my desires
you are society
spoon feeding lies to me
blind-folded taste test
my senses cant detect
I cant tell the difference between
i cant tell the difference between
i cant tell the difference between
falling/flying/living/dying/laughing/crying/loving/lying
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9. |
Let's Live
01:48
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10. |
Love
03:30
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I once felt that Love did not exist
That we were just nihilistic animals just breeding until we die
I was sad, Ignorant, Ungrateful
I felt alone.
I wanted nothing, I felt nothing;
Death sounded like a sanctuary of nothing
But
Then
I thought of my Mother
I heard her laugh and I saw her smile
Carrying me for nine hungry, tiring months to bring me life
And love me unconditionally past her last breath
So what am I?
She braved over one hundred months through fourteen pregnancies
with a man who does not deserve her love
and raised twelve children on her own and still have the love and energy to cut the crust of off my peanut-butter and jelly sandwich
SO WHAT AM I?
I will reflect her and learn how to love.
Love is patient, love is kind.
Love.... is kind of crazy
It will find you when you have lost yourself in a storm of fear and hatred
Love will talk to you when no one else could understand you
Love is more than a bond between two humans
Love is Everything
Love is the laugh of your significant other
The way they lift your spirit
Love is paying attention to detail
Love is the butterflies in your stomach after your first kiss
The nostalgia when you come home after being away for far too long
Love is in the tears you cry after saying goodbye to an old friend
Love is always there
Silently, modestly waiting for you to need her.
I feared her. I pushed her away, even told her I hated her.
She never hated me. Never resented me either. Just waited. Waited for me to accept her. Waited for me to come home.
Well,
I'm home now.
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11. |
The Universe
02:26
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Not Caleb Portland, Oregon
Silly Songs With Larry cover band
Emo Singer-Songwriter Portland, OR
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